Ten Speed (of God's Blood and Burial)

Day 10: One confession.

1. I do not feel like I'm an honest person. I try to be myself at all times, but I feel fake, I feel like I'm not me sometimes. I lose myself from time to time and I do not like it.

Nine in the Afternoon

Day 9: Two smileys that describe your life right now.

1. :)

2. :|

Eight Days A Week

Day 8: Three turn on's.

1. Piercings.

2. Individuality (not I'm goth and super lame, but, I'm not like everyone else and I'm pretty cool.)

3. Personality.

Seven Seas

Day 7: Four turn offs.

1. Smoking.

2. Druggies/Alcoholics

3. Not keeping up with yourself.

4. Liars.

Seventy-Six Trombones

Day 6: Five people who mean a lot ( in no specific order)

1. My Brother Eric.

2. Tara Burke.

3. Andrea Morell.

4. Lady GaGa :)

5. Kristina Halford.

I Love You Five

Day 5: Six things you wish you'd never done.

1. I wish the night at the Travelodge had never happened. No details. However, I believe all involve believe it was a mistake.

2. I wish I never would have spent my time on you, obviously you weren't mature enough to deserve it.

3. I regret leaving, I regret walking away, but things just were so different, I couldn't handle it. After you left, I couldn't stay anymore.

4. I wish I would have never lost your friendship.

5. I wish I wouldn't have cut my hair my senior year.

6. I wish I would have put more thought into getting my lip pierced again. (I only say this, because it still is not healed.)

When I'm Sixty-FOUR.

Day 4: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

1. I think about my future a lot. I think about love, people, college, and life in general.

2. I think about friendship, who I consider a friend, who is a true friend, and so on.

3. I think about who I want to be, what kind of person I wish to reflect.

4. I think about death, my death, friend's deaths, and family death. (Not like wishing they would die, but rather my reaction.)

5. I think about what other people think of me constantly when I'm in an uncomfortable place. It's kind of like paranoia.

6. I think about getting my septum pierced a lot!

7. I think about what I project to others.

Two Lefts Don't Make a Right but Three Do

Day 3: Eight ways to win your heart.

1. Hang out with me

2. become a super close friend

3. join in on hatred talks :)

4. Be a total idiot

5. Be yourself

6. act like a 2 year old in public (in a funny way, not super annoying immature way)

7. bake me brownies and provide the butter

8. Tell me you like my hair

It Takes Two.

Day 2: Nine things about yourself.

1. I love Cheerleading. :)

2. I love Musicals. :)

3. I love Sign Language. :)

4. Sometimes I feel insignificant :(

5. I don't have the belief that you have to love someone because their family :|

6. I absolutely love being talked about and stereotyped! :D

7. I hate college so far.

8. I miss your friendship and the closeness we shared once :(

9. I'm pessimistic but fake optimism quite well.

This is the First day of my Life

Day 1: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

1. Mother. Honestly I do not like who you are, what you might stand for or anything to do with you actually. You continue to talk to me after you ask me to not talk to you for the next week. Seriously, wake up and make some sense. You expect me to be friends with you after you threatened to knock all my teeth out with a rolling pin and you were completely serious. Get Real woman. You should be trying to get along with me, if you don't now you never will. I'll be leaving soon, and if you don't connect with me now, then we will never have a "relationship."

2. Andrea. I'm so happy that we are becoming closer again. It makes me glad to know that you can be friends with someone over several years, and continue to like them. :)

3. Father. I wish you didn't work so much, and that you would actually take time to get to know me. You pretend that you know who I am, but how could you, you're at home for maybe 20 hours a week or so it seems. Money isn't the most important thing.

4. Brother. I wish you lived here or I lived there. I don't like not seeing you for months at a time. It's weird I'm not a fan.

5. Cheerleading. You make me feel needed. You make me feel appreciated and understood.

6. Facebook. You ruin my life. I would have a lot of extra time if it weren't for you and your stupid social networking. I waste my life on you, and it's dumb. However, I am on there right now.

7. Karl. Who cares who YOU are. It's your life, not theirs. Be who you are and who accepts you, actually cares about you, and whoever doesn't accept you wasn't that close to you anyway. You deserve to be happy. You are far too cool to be held back by people.

8. Anonymous. I'm glad I have someone to talk to. I'm nervous though, I don't know what to expect or if we are wasting our times. I don't know what I'm looking for, I don't know if you are it. I'm just uncertain.

9. Anonymous. I still think about you, it's like you're dead. In a sense you are dead, or rather I am. I regret you. I honestly regret you. I don't know why I wasted my time on you. I lost a part of my life due to you, and that's fine, I just wish I would have been a different chunk of life.

10. Blogger. I like you. I like to blog and get things off my chest. It helps me not be so bitter. So Thank you for being so dedicated to me and always being there.

Getting to know me, getting to know all about me.

Ten Day Challenge!

So, I stole this from someone who stole it from someone else. I think that I will try to do this.

Here's how it works:

Day 1: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

Day 2: Nine things about yourself.

Day 3: Eight ways to win your heart.

Day 4: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

Day 5: Six things you wish you'd never done.

Day 6: Five people who mean a lot ( in no specific order)

Day 7: Four turn offs.

Day 8: Three turn on's.

Day 9: Two smileys that describe your life right now.

Day 10: One confession.