Okay, so here is a little update on my life. I've been living in Mattoon for 2 months as of yesterday. I love it. I don't love Mattoon so much, but I love not living in Ramsey. While Mattoon is still full of rednecks, and people I don't care much for, I've started to become close with several people here. I'm surprised by the fact that people are still so judgmental and stupid. When I walk through the halls, I don't become deaf or blind, I can see and hear you making fun of me. I'm glad that growing up in Ramsey, has made me accustomed to this, and it doesn't phase me. I love living on my own. It's not what I expected, but it's very enjoyable. I assumed that I would be bored 24/7 but I'm not. I've been keeping myself occupied with crappy movies and tv shows that I watch online. Very cool and fun stuff obviously. I also haven't lost touch with my friends from Ramsey/Vandalia, which is pretty exciting. I'm not lonely either, I figured that I would feel lonely quite often, but I just don't. I'm content with being by myself. I get along with myself more than I used to, I guess you sort of have to whenever it's just you and yourself right?
Lately, I've been trying to figure out what is next for my life. I still can't seem to come up with a game plan. It's kind of discouraging, because I feel like I'm running out of time. I know that I need to start applying to schools for next fall. I just don't know what schools to apply to because I don't know what I want to do. It's a sucky situation. I feel like I was ill prepared to plan my future, whether that's my own fault, my parents, or the school district I grew up in, I'm unsure. It doesn't help that by nature I'm very indecisive. Also, another thing is, when I do transfer, do I want to cheer/try to cheer? I really just don't know. Yes, I love cheer, but I don't know that I'll have the time at a university, or if I would even make it. As you can tell my future is just a blur still and I don't know what's going on in it.
Well, enough procrastinating, I have homework that's due in a little bit. :)
