Friendship & Family

Friendship.
Honestly, it feels like I shouldn’t even try anymore. I’ll be moving on in less than a year. I’ll be in a bigger place, with more people, and with everyday, we are growing further and further apart. I’m tired of trying, I’ve tried for a long time and I think it’s time to go our separate ways. You’ve got your life and I’ve got mine, I think it’s time to stop their intertwine. You’ve taken my friends, but I don’t care anymore. Take them, as they seem to not want me anymore now. It’s funny how in a short amount of time how everything changes. People grow up and mature and other reverse. It’s like you don’t care about me, and frankly if that’s how it is, then let’s be done.
At the current, I’m having a difficult time with friendship. In a way, I want to venture out and find new friends, but I don’t want to have to explain my life story to them. In one aspect, I would like to forget the friends that have not stood by me for the length of our friendship. I try to be there 100 percent for people and most don’t seem to be there for me. I just feel let down. I feel hurt.

Family.
As the days pass by, I’m starting to realize, that I don’t understand why we put so much emphasis on family. People say you can’t chose your family, that blood runs thicker than water, and so on however you put that family is important and you are stuck with them. Honestly, in my experience, I’m much happier away from my family. It doesn’t make sense that you have to “love” someone because you share a minute fraction of D.N.A. It’s like saying you have to love everyone with the same hair color as you. It makes that little sense to me. Family members are simply other people in the world that have something in common with you. That’s it. Why do we have to love them? Why can’t we stop talking to them? Why is there so much emphasis put on family? In all honesty, I don’t like my family, they don’t understand me, and they judge me way more than anyone else I know. But yet, I’m supposed to sit there and hear their opinion of me, because we share blood. They can put me down and I have to stand for it. People are simply people and family members are simply people. We should be able to decide on who we want in our lives. So what, if two people have unprotected sex and make a baby? Seriously, that should not sentence the kid to a life sentence of stupid people he must always be tied to. It’s ridiculous to think that because people have kids that this kid is “part of the family.” The only way someone can become part of a family is through understanding and accepting. We don’t let people into our chosen families when they treat us badly, lie to us, and put us down, no we simply let them go. So why should “family” be any different?